I’ve spent this summer as a spectator, not a participant

As an advocate of practising gratitude and focusing on the positive, I’ve been struggling lately. But a dinner with my husband help me to unblock something…

We were sitting at a lovely table in a local restaurant, looking out over the cobbled Catherine Hill, the sun starting to dip a little and I thought: 

Right now, I should be feeling quite special. I’m here with my husband, who I love being with, and two of our three children. 

But I don’t.

There was so much to be grateful for, and yet I felt like a spectat…